My Beautiful Daydream

Apologies

10/25/2016

“It's not a person's mistakes that define them. It's the way they make amends." - Freya North. You know, I feel pretty good about my ability and willingness to forgive people. I don't hold grudges, and I believe people change. Forgiveness comes relatively easy to me. However, it's the saying I'm sorry that I seem to struggle with. I think it's because I hold myself to an incredibly high standard, and when I fail, I take it very personally. I don't feel "I failed", but rather "I'm a failure." I'm working on this, however. People have come into my life to remind me that it's okay to make mistakes. It's how we handle these mistakes after they happen that is truly important.

Today, I try to follow the three rules of a proper apology - 1) I'm sorry; 2) It's my fault; 3) What can I do to make it right? - If I can follow these three rules, I give myself a great gift: the freedom of knowing I have taken care of my part. I do what I can to make things right again. I take the lesson of my mistake and hopefully don't repeat it. Then I let it go. It is up to the other person to forgive or not forgive. I can rest, knowing I've done my part, knowing that I may have failed, but I'm not a failure. I have a long way to go on this still. But I hope that as time goes on, and I learn more and experience safe places to be sorry, I can learn that it's okay to be wrong. Being wrong doesn't mean I'm a failure.

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Shine

10/24/2016

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You know who you are. The people with the rough childhoods, unfair beginnings, who climbed their way to peace despite a life that could justify cynicism. Those who lost people close to them along the way, taken too soon, and choose to still have faith that life is worth living and Higher Power is worth trusting. And the people who have loved with every piece of their souls, who have experienced the agony of heartbreak, and still give love freely to everyone they meet. To those people and more who have been broken by a broken world yet rise every day to face it all again, discover it all again, trust it all again, and shine. You go, you freakin' warrior you.

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Loving My Inner Child

10/15/2016

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I had a very powerful meditation last night. I went in with the intention to remember some things from my past that I have no memory of; anything that could be affecting my happiness and peace today. I expected to go back to my very young years to discover things people had done to hurt me. Instead, I was shown ways that I had hurt myself. I was shown my adolescence and young adulthood, when I had neglected my own needs, built an impenetrable wall around me, and lost touch with my feelings completely. I blotted out my life with drugs and alcohol and men. I let people treat me terribly. I always settled for 'less than' because I thought I was 'less than'.

While seeing this girl during my meditation, I was filled with love and compassion for her. I realized how fragile she was, and all the while she had tried to be so strong and brave, trying to convince herself that she couldn't feel the pain. My heart broke, and I cried and cried. I wrapped my arms around myself and told that broken teenager that I was so, so sorry. I told her that it's done; no longer will I neglect myself and my needs. No longer will I treat myself or LET myself be treated badly. I told her I will take care of her now. I will no longer settle for 'less than'.

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I urge you, if you have never done a healing meditation for your inner child, to set aside some time to do it. It is one of the most cleansing, restorative, loving things you can do for yourself. I talk about how to do this in my new book. If you need additional help with it, contact me. Lots of love, friends!

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Full Moon Release Meditation

10/15/2016

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Who else plans to do a Full Moon release meditation tonight?

The full moon symbolizes the culmination of the intentions you planted on the New Moon. Tonight's meditation involves writing down all the things you want to release over the following two weeks until the next new moon.

Here's what to do:

Wait until dark
Write down a list of old beliefs, people you want to break ties with, habits you want to give up, and anything else that is limiting you or holding you back
Now, get a glass/ceramic bowl and a lighter
Go outside into the moonlight
Sit in quiet meditation, thinking over the things you want to release and, one by one, giving them over to your higher power
Take the paper with your list, light the corner, place it in the bowl, and watch them burn
After the paper has burned, thank your higher power for taking these things from you
Meditate in the light of the full moon for as long as you want.

*Remember to dispose of the ashes safely.

Happy Meditating!

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Karma, Resentments, and Making Amends

10/12/2016

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It is said that, "Integrity is doing the right thing, even when no one is watching." I admit, there have been times in my life when I did things I'm not proud of. And there have been bad things done to me that made me feel worthless. And for a long while, I beat myself up relentlessly over all those things. I almost let them destroy me. But the joy and hope I have today is that I can clear up any resentments I have toward the people who hurt me. And I can make amends to those people that I've hurt. And I can walk with my head held high, without regret and without guilt, knowing that my conscience is clear. Knowing that my karma is clean.

Are you holding onto a resentment today that needs to be cleaned up? Do you need to tell someone you're sorry and change your ways? I urge you to do what it takes to keep your conscience clear. After all... "A clear conscience makes the softest pillow." And man, how I love my sleep!

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It's in pain that our souls grow

10/4/2016

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"...We might have never learned that having problems is the path to the growth and serenity we all seek... To acknowledge life as being filled with opportunity rather than problems is a tiny shift in perspective that gives us huge rewards." - Karen Casey.

It's in pain that our souls grow. We couldn't experience growth and serenity without it. When life gives us problems, we have a choice. We can get lost in the problem, bury ourselves in it, cover ourselves in it like a blanket and get comfortable in our discomfort. Or we can change our perspective, search for the opportunity, find the lesson, and bloom!

Where are you hurting today? What is the Universe trying to teach you? If you learn the lesson THIS time, there won't have to be a NEXT time.

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