Calm down. There is no need to worry yourself. Take a few breaths. Be at peace. You have moved on from the dagger' blade. The wound now just needs to heal. Believe in yourself. Things are working themselves out. It takes time. Be patient. He wants to be here with you. Don’t protect everyone else at the expense of your inner peace. Your needs are important too. Look at you! Look at who you have become. That’s just it. Becoming. It is always a learning process. Things take time. Don’t be in such a hurry. Remember that the learning process brings joy too. Hardships. And joy. It will all work out. You know that. It’s the unknowing that causes anxiety. Try to remain at peace, knowing the Universe has it all under control. Whatever happens, it is exactly as it’s supposed to happen. Endure the discomfort. Suffer through it. It will be worth it at the other end. It always is. You already know that.
I'm just a traveler, a dreamer, like you.