Loving My Inner Child

I had a very powerful meditation last night. I went in with the intention to remember some things from my past that I have no memory of; anything that could be affecting my happiness and peace today. I expected to go back to my very young years to discover things people had done to hurt me. Instead, I was shown ways that I had hurt myself. I was shown my adolescence and young adulthood, when I had neglected my own needs, built an impenetrable wall around me, and lost touch with my feelings completely. I blotted out my life with drugs and alcohol and men. I let people treat me terribly. I always settled for 'less than' because I thought I was 'less than'.

While seeing this girl during my meditation, I was filled with love and compassion for her. I realized how fragile she was, and all the while she had tried to be so strong and brave, trying to convince herself that she couldn't feel the pain. My heart broke, and I cried and cried. I wrapped my arms around myself and told that broken teenager that I was so, so sorry. I told her that it's done; no longer will I neglect myself and my needs. No longer will I treat myself or LET myself be treated badly. I told her I will take care of her now. I will no longer settle for 'less than'.

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I urge you, if you have never done a healing meditation for your inner child, to set aside some time to do it. It is one of the most cleansing, restorative, loving things you can do for yourself. I talk about how to do this in my new book. If you need additional help with it, contact me. Lots of love, friends!